I Never Realized

After your death
I was depressed

I felt more empty
Like nothing was there for me.

I felt the pain rip at my heart
Like a knife stealing the life from me.

Yet, I didn't know why.

I went on, feeling more lonely with each looming day

Then...
Then, I noticed it.

I wanted so badly to confide in you, my pain.
I wanted you to tell me that It's all ok.

But you weren't there for me.

I never realized just how important you were to my life.
How important you still are.

As I read your journals, they inspire me, they help me. And that tells me...

What a great friend you were to me.

Now I know