Worse?

Could anything get anymore worse than it already is?
I've already lost my everything, could I lose anymore?
My friends, my only thing that got me up every morning,
The only thing that got me through the day,
The only thing that got me to sleep softly every night
The only thing I could lean on is gone!
Is there anything I can do about that?
Is there anything anyone can do about?
It's not as if I could walk in and just ask,
If they would be my friends,
If they would somehow learn to care.
It never seemed an issue before, they were just always there
And suddenly their not anymore.

It's difficult because I want them to be there for me
But I don't want to force them to care, force them to love me
There's nothing I can do if they don't chose to care, or love

If they don't care, then they don't care
I wish I could say it isn't a big deal, but it is

It's like losing a puppy
You would do anything to get it back

The difference is this puppy I've lost
Is standing right there, but my arms just can't reach
My words just can't find their ears

And when I do get close to getting them back,
Everything goes wrong,
Someone puts hurtful words in my mouth
And once again they slip through my hands like sand
Why can't they just come back to me?
Why can't everything be the way it used to be?