How close to death it is to be me

Some people just don't see
How close to death it is to be me

I hope I don't have much time left on this earth
God, what was the reason for my birth?

Inside my head my demons are rattling
I lose so much I'm tired of battling

I thought about swinging that car into that tree
I thought about taking all those pills that were giving to me

I thought about taking this gun and ending it
I'm tired of dealing with all the bullshit

why cant it just all end
and let me win

I want to have a good life and a reason to live
God my soul....I give

hear me, heal me,save me, love me.
I'm sorry

Sorry for the things that I do
Sorry for the lies I have told you

I don't know what you want from me
Please Oh god show me

Help me be a good man
a future, a goal, a plan

I know its not easy being you
I think sometimes maybe even you don't know what to do

I'm not saying your not always right
but theres just so much darkness around the light

maybe your busy or maybe you just don't hear me
maybe your watching and waiting to see

if I can find the answerers on my own
but god, I'm so tired of being alone

Some people just don't see
How close to death it is to be me