the girl I am I hide
but I will show it to you.
On the outside I'll tell you lies
in the end I'll bleed the truth.
I say cruel things to your face.
Later I'll curse myself.
I'll say repeatedly I want to die.
Inside i search for help.
Hate rings in my ears.
love rings in my mind.
your touch leaves me angry.
the kindness makes me cry.
you soft words make me sick.
your hardness softens my ways.
your smile burns my eyes
but it makes me want to stay.
your happiness disgraces me.
your laugh makes my smile glow
i love the way you make me feel
i hate how you make it show.
