Beautifully broken soul

I wanna be the pretties wreak you'll ever see.
I'll be so dangerously broken,
It'll make you curious enough to walk up to me,
and greet me with a tender smile.
and when i shy away,
you reach out and grab my hand,
as i jerk away gently,
spin on my heels,
and walking away,
you watch me go,
never wanting to give up on this beautifully broken soul,
slowly and silently you follow me,
never giving away your position,
though i know you are behind me,
i don't give that knowledge to you,
but every day this continues,
and every day i wonder if i give what is left of my heart out,
will you be there to accept it, and keep it forever?
Or will you break what is left,
which will leave me a heart-less bitter woman.
So many things lay in my head to pounder,
every time i turn around and look your way,
you look away hoping i haven't seen you,
as i take a quick, but thoughtful glance at you,
i realize i just cant give any part of me to another boy,
not even as a friend.
and with that, a silent, lonely tear runs down my cheek.

Aug 2/2010