Eternity wasnt long enough

The violin plays
And keeps on playing
To the tune of your tears
And for all these years
There has always been a narrow door opening
yet I kept shutting it
Afraid of what's behind; more sorrow
The endless cycle
I waited for you
For years in the rain
Eternity wasnt long enough
I stood there wondering
Remembering
Thinking
God spoke to me
Told me to end my life
That night
Because maybe you would love me
In the next