Once Upon A Time

You may or may not take my words to heart,
But at least one can't say I didn't try
For once hear me to the end
Once upon a time
To each other we were kind
But something was amiss
Not sure exactly when or why
Our sibling love turn to hate
Everyone thinks my brother I despise
And wish him the worst
But at night they don't see me cry
For far too many reasons
Tears run down my cheek
Just wanting to close my eyes
And awake with no more pain
I can't easily forget your treasons
Nor can I forgive how you disturbed
The serenity of the minds I hold dear
My disgust is with the man you became
When I know you can be better
People tell me you are a changed man
Seeing your transformation would make me glad
I hope to see it before any of us dies
Though a changed man, I doubt
For I have seen your cycles to my dismay
Peace is what I seek
How is it we turned out so differently?
This question eats at my soul most days
I can't find peace till this is answered
Because of you most people I don't entrust
My anger towards you
Has made me someone I don't want to be
As much as I run
I can't escape the thought I may be like you
I refuse to let this pain, this sorrow
That makes me feel hollow
Forever swallow me
Consider this my white flag
I'm waving it like no other
Despite how often I see you,
I don't see my brother but a stranger
My brother, is who I really miss
Someone I could look up to
Be a role model I need
Here I will be
Keeping the light on
For a very lost boy