Glass Elevator

I'm surrounded all around me
I'm standing in a big glass box
It's empty and very silent
I'm left only with my thoughts

I'm moving and the doors open
Those I loathe are what I see
The ones that beat, scratched, and pulled
The ones that took advantage of me

I realize I'm in an elevator
The only button to press is down
Seeing nothing below me
Anything is better than where I am now

I quickly press the button
It was cold against my palm
The next time the doors opened
I'm greeted by my mom

She stood there very coldly
She didn't say a thing
Just like I've always viewed her
Distant. And intimidating

My stomach started to turn
Because I know what she thinks of me
So again I hit that button
To explore more down below me

The lights aren't as bright anymore
A couple must have gone out
Oh well it's not a big deal
My decisions I don't doubt

I'm greeted by my family
The ones who never say a word
I'm not surprised they didn't say hi
From them that would be absurd

Again I hit the arrow
The one that's pointing down
I wonder how high up I am
Or am I closer to the ground

I'm greeted by my one night stands
The ones I don't remember
The ones I used just to feel something
A high number I'll have forever

I think I remember that one
But this guy I have no clue
But instead of standing awkwardly
Pushing the button is what I'll do

It's getting pretty dark now
I can tell where the lights once were
Having to squint to see at all
It's really all a blur

The next door holds dear friends
The ones that saved me in high school
The ones that acted as father and supporter
The ones that knew I wasn't a fool

I almost step out to greet them
But then my memory kicks in
They've cut me off they're sick of me
They don't know where I've been

I hit the button another time
This level is pitch black
I can't see a thing at all
I almost want to go back

The door parts and I see you
I don't know why you look sad
I step out to hug you
Unaware that everything is bad

You start to slowly tear up
But you won't tell me why
So I begin to kiss you
And that's all that I can try

Your tears turn to sobs
So I panic and back off
Scared that I'll lose you
But then I hear you scoff

You're mad at me I see it
But you won't say it to me
You'd rather just ignore it
And just easily let it be

I turn around to leave
But something I didn't see
The back of the box is a mirror
And I'm faced with a broken me

My skin is very bruised
I have no meat on my bones
I'm covered head to toe with scars
My eyes as cold as stones

I don't like what I see
So I turn back around to you
But the doors are closed and you are gone
Now what do I do

There can't be anymore stops
I pushed the button to leave every level
It's dark. It's hot. I'm scared.
I must be meeting the devil.

I wish I never hit that button
No not even one time
I wish I could do it over
And claim all that was mine

But it's too late and here I go
To a hell I supposed I asked
I wish I could get out
Of my elevator made of glass