My Lost Flower.

My Lost Flower.
By:Elaine.C.

The wind blows freely rustling crimson leaves,as a youthful laughter fills the air.Her hair a honey blond
falling in long waves shimmered in the warming rays of the autumn sun.
A charming smile that was a little crooked crossed the glowing face of my first child.She was beautiful,
an unexpected blessing with the hair of her father,and the eyes of her mother.
But when her clear blue eyes,looked up at me her lips mouthed a sorrowful "Mommy!", that brought tears to my eyes.
The bright autumn sun lost all warmth as black clouds dominated the clear skies, and the sun rays were hidden by a
dark fog.
Suddenly a sharp pain snaked through my stomach,as my eyes looked up into the black depths of the abyss,and there
I saw it... A mistake I made long ago, a mistake that caused wounds that never healed...A crime I should never have
committed...
A girl.. with brown hair and green eyes stared at me begging me not to do it...
But what exactly was it I planned to do?
Shaking my head as i walked away,From my best friend?, saying something that could not be made out..
And then I saw them..Three guys, none that I recognized, but so completely familiar to the pain and guilt
living within my heart.
Like all the other times, I was not reliving the biggest mistake of my life, I was watching myself commit it
over and over again..And there was not a thing I could do too stop it.
They told me too lay down.. and I obeyed.
I laid in the snow, snow that would soon be warmer than my heart..
and took the constant blows as well as the excruciating pain that came with it.
Soon the ground was soaked with my blood, and my vision blurred, my eye lids felt heavy and no longer could i keep them open..
The memory of the pain, the sadness that consumed me, and then the black sleep I fell into- A sleep so like death, but not
permanent as my heart wished- was so vivid I felt tears roll down my cheeks.
Through teary eyes, I watched as the ground soaked with blood as my limp body lay in the snow until the ambulance came..
The sirens pierced the dark, a splitting sound that could have cracked my skull, but I was numb to all but the burning pain
taking residence in my heart.
They worked on me for hours, trying to save my baby, but there was no hope she had died in my womb,the place were she was
suppose to be safe...
My unborn angel was with god now, and me, I am left hear to slowly die with a broken heart, and the pain from reopening of old
wounds as I press on haunted by the beautiful smile of my unborn child...