I am trying so hard to move on with my life
Struggling not to turn back
I dream of a life of happiness and joy
Though I live in a well of doubt and darkness
As I fight to keep my head above water
Concentrating on every breath
Forcing the air into my lungs
In out
In out
I feel the tears building up behind my eyelids
As I look at the couple in the street
The woman pushing the stroller
The man holding the womans waist
That is all I need
All I want
I daydream of that guy
So sweet, so nice
He looks at me and smiles
Then holds me so close
That feels so good!
I feel the tears
Behind my eyelids
Again
As I think of not hearing his voice
Oh how I crave the sound of his soft voice
And the feel of his arms wrapped around my body
I must stop these thoughts from filling my mind
Yet I force them there
I know that I am not appealing enough for a guy like him
I breathe again
In out
In out
As I remind myself that my dream will never come true
I live in my life
What a joke!
