Sisters? Best friends? What do those words mean to you?

I woke up this morning
put on a happy smile
wasn't a cloud in the sky
I thought it was going to be a good day..

The day went by real slow, but it was good
I spent time with my family, did school,etc..

I finally got time to log on the computer, checked MySpace, I got your letter.. the goodbye one..
you claimed to be my sister, my best friend, the one I could turn to on a bad day..

13 years.. 13 d*mn years.. YOU claimed it meant EVERYTHING to you, you claimed that me moving away hurt, and you would do ANYTHING to go back to the days where I lived closer ...

but yet..

after you said all that..
I haven't heard from you..
since new years..
Then, everything was fine for us.. you hugged me & said you loved me.. I WAS YOUR SISTER..

but you didn't care.
you had better friends back home..
who had money
could buy you anything you want..
could take you on trips with them..
have you stay over at their house..

I couldn't do any of that.. other than have you stay at my house, but then, god forbid, your 8hrs away from them.. the girls that replaced me.. they took you away from me, and I don't know why.

you said it was me, I've changed to much, but yet, when I asked "how have I changed?" you wouldn't answer me.. you couldn't come out and say that you didn't wanna be friends or tell me how I've changed, because I haven't..

you won't answer my phone calls, or even my e-mails..
my mother tried calling you, you even claimed she was your adopted mother because we have been "friends" for so long..

but you won't answer her either.. you've turned your back on all of us, with no given reason, other than I've changed

I'm tired of caring about you
I'm tired of being myself but yet that's not good enough..
I can't fake this smile any longer, I can't be there when you need me but yet when I need you, your no where to be found..

I hope they're real good friends to you, I hope the next time your father hurts you, they give you a room to stay in, because Hun, I won't be here.
I won't be the place for you to run to,
I won't be the shoulder for you to cry on.
I won't be the arms waiting to hug you.
Because I'm doing what you said I've already done.
I'm changing.

and guess what, I'm glad. because maybe now, I won't get hurt so much, maybe now, since I'm not the good friend to everyone, I won't get turned down..

Maybe for once, you'll open your eyes and realize what you had.. but ya know, thats too bad, because I won't be waiting for that time..

Its done, its over, I'm wiping my hands clean of you and your issues.

Goodbye.

About this poem:
okay guys, if you have read any of my poems, then you should read "Picture frame of you & I" it goes with this one,

I have a friend that I loved like a sister, her name was Kelli, I've known her going on 13 years, we've been through literal hell together.. but all of a sudden, she don't care to be friends anymore.. after everything, I've "changed",

I've taken my family's advice, and i backed off.. for 2 months, i had nothing to do with her, not that she tried to contact me.. but i haven't said ANYTHING to her since New Years Eve, when she was visiting me.

Today, I got a letter from her, saying that she didn't care to talk to me anymore, she didn't care to be friends with me anymore, if i tried to call she wouldn't answer, she'd block my number, etc.. if i tried to write her an email, she wouldn't even read it, she'd just delete it.

so yeah thats what this poems about..

you don't have to leave comments, i don't expect them, i just wrote this because i needed some way to get all these emotions going through my head right now, out in the open,

take care.