When did i start to give him the power?!

One slit, two slits along my lips
So ashamed, for they have touched his, my abusers lips
One drop, two drops of blood sliding along my neck, god it feels so good, to make my lips feel so numb,
Keep slicing as the razors high rushing in, and the memories of what he did fade away .... For now
Then I catch a glimpse of my reflection, I whisper "I look like a monster" tears begin to flow, I feel so pathetic as I wonder how did I get here, when did I start to give him the power to make me become this?

true story. don't ever give someone else the power to make you hurt yourself.