Friendship Cycle

Smile. Laughter. Joy.
When all the things at your hand
And feel friends presence at your side
Share with them your loveliness
Helping each other when one's in need
Make them secure with the way you care
Act like funny to make them happy
Add all humor... more and more
Its just that and they'll your friends
They'll your friends that could took your world around.

Sadness. Doubts. Sorrow.
Are taught just test of time.
Don't know what you do
With one mistake, haven't informed
But rather they show how they can forsake
Yet you feel safe cause they accepted
For you're just a fool and done another err
Such sorry you've heard alright, but, plus buts!
They couldn't get away your doubts and worries
They said "Its okay" but you saw "No way!"
Now all you do is wait for their said response
All you do is lie low for them to be satisfied
All your just asking is to repeat their approach
Your days not free every time you see them both
Your friends they do, took your world around

Hurt. Reality. Desert.
You haven't seen enough their real intention
All they do is showed you how they reproach
They sometimes refusing about knowing you
To you and others, their in front of you
Even plants and animals, they know they're hurt
Why cant you? To do not sense that there's no chance?

Questions. Possibility? Remembrance.
You do not know how long these will take
You understand them, but do they understand you?
You ate the words you'd just thrown away
You must start again, but when, where will you begin?
With your minds imprisoned by those memories they made
And reminiscing them makes your heart to grief.
The last teardrop you have, hasn't fell yet
Oh, you never expected it will come this way
Why cant you all talk it over to settle this or never
You know they're strong because there's the two of them
They wanted you out, why cant they tell you already?
Or are they just pretending, there's no sensibility at all
You're not numb to do not feel the way they treated you now
You suffered pain from rejection
To this, it wasn't enough?
They assured they'll forget
But their doings is just the opposite
You're waiting and waiting
When will it end?

Then. Now. Forever?
They leave you nothing
But happiness like scars of traces
Memories of friendship
Warnings to be shattered
You hope it wont happen
For these treasures to be broken
You hope its not the end
To keep them forever like precious stones and gold
To keep them forever, your two old pal and friend.

Loss. Alone. Loneliness.
Never even in fantasy
These isn't told.
Nor in fairy tales
Sad endings untold.
All by yourself is what you have
Emptiness like always,
Emptiness like your end...

(composed on April 4, 1999 during the second time of me and my friends trouble)