No, im not blaming you

You're broken promises, paved the road to my self-destruction.
you're piercing words carved out my wounds.
you're hands created bruises, that became my lies.
you're judging stares and filthy words triggered my e.d that is now my life.
no,I'm not blaming you, I'm the one who picked up the blade, im the one who chose, i'm just for once in my life, telling you the truth.