Why...

I cannot seem to drop the fact
i still think of her
but i think of others

and yet everything around me is blurred
and i ask her to leave me
but all i want is her near me

i never wanted to let go
but was always seperated

life gave me more chances
but they were taken away by others

only to use her...

and all i can think
is why...

why did she leave to be used
when all i wanted is to be near her

now i believe ive done wrong
and yet i know it was not me

still i wonder
why...

and now it hurts more to wonder
of what will happen
and what will be lost in the end

but im still wondering
why...