Only 6 years old...

I hate myself that I kept it a secret so long.
I thought the feeling had vanished and was gone.
Even though it happened so many years ago.
I was only 6 years old...
and its still in my soul deep within...
I can still feel my pain...
its so hard to let go...
I thought it had been over
but its so hard to put it behind you
when no one else knew the truth...
Its your fault that I have nightmares,
Its your fault I cant sleep at night...
It's your fault that I am always too cautious
Its your fault I am always nauseous
Its your fault that I will never forget
the pain that you brought me too...
when I was just 6 years old...

*This poem I think has to be one of the hardest I ever had to write* *Please rate/comment*