Last Confession

This is my last confession to you
i pray it reads you well
my skin now thin and cold
my heart brittle and unwell
i long for you to know
that everyday i think of you.
not a second passes without regret
guilt that i didn't do more

i feel sick to the core now your gone
hopeless i sit here dreaming of brighter horizons
just wanting you back
praying so hard for another word
another laugh, to share our moments again

i feel a prisoner in myself
twisting and turning
eyes sweating and the rage over boiling
what i could of done...?
what could i have done...?

each day i torment my life
with these questions
never receiving an answer
so the chain is never broke

tears flow a river of fear
Bridges are not built
i feel broken for you..
my heart is always open
the scar you left
I'm happy its there..
i will never leave you, my friend
my cousin, my brother

so rest here peacefully
do not wake in pain
for i am here
and always shall be
x