When you look at me

When you look at me
what is it you see
I see a worthless girl
feeling lost in this world
I see someone who's hurt
But knows this is what i deserve
I see a girl who's been raped
and wants to take her life away
Feels unwanted by her mother and father
I see someone who cries
doesn't know what to feel inside
someone who cuts them self
but has a hard time asking for help
I know its my fault everything
I have no self esteem
I see a girl who was hurt as a child
Ive been hurting for a while
i wish i could go back and change this
its hard for me to talk about it
i see someone who hates them self
everyday, especially now
I feel i could scream at the top of my lungs
and not a person could hear me, no one
I could cry a river of tears
but nothing compares to the fear
the fear that fills my heart
the fear that tears me apart
I see a girl who drinks her pain away
use to do drugs to get through the day
whose attempted suicide several times
yet still wants to die