These ghoast inside of me

My head starts to hurt
This time i know i didnt bang it on the wall
I know its happing again
I have these ghoast that live inside of me
I call them my only friends
They realy understand what im going through
I have no one to talk to
Only the ghoast can understand me
I went into the other room
Someone was there i didnt want to see
I started to feel sick
Then BOOM
Another ghoast took me over
When i came back its was night time
My mom told me she was so proud of what i did that day
I didnt say a word
It wasnt me!!
I kept this to myself
I went into my room
I cut and even tryed to end it all
I feel differnet
I dont want to live
So much time im always loosing
So many fights i get into
So many friends i loose
No one understand what i say
I looked into the mairror
Who was this person staring back?
It must be me right?
Only im not her
I get so confussed
When i cut last ngiht
It made me forget some of what i hold back
It took some of my pain away
When im cutting all the things i dont say come out
Then i can be me
These ghoast
They know differnt stuff then i do
Im so glade they help me try to get through
These ghoast keep me safe
They are always here for me
People tell me what i did
I shake my head and go along
It makes no sence talking
And trying to explane
The other night i went out with friends
I didnt want to change into another ghoast
I tryed my hardesnt to stay
After awhile i felt it going to happing
This time i felt the warning i dont usually feel
I got so angry
I got so made
I felt to alone
I saw a car coming fast
I ran in front of it
I hope it would of killed me or some of the ghoast
I just wanted to be with my friends
I didnt want to have a ghoast take me over
With everything that goes on
I always take the blame
It makes no sence talking
About something that no one can understand
You start to feel all alone
Against the world
You cry but cant be heard