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by hollie Mar 4, 2008 category : Sadness, depression / lost relationships
Blankly i stare into the computer screen. not wanting to move. not feeling a thing. as if everything around me is moving and leaving me behind. i stay behind because if i move forward i might lose the memories of him. my love. my eyes start to close. my mind starts to wander. i open my eyes. i tell my self NO! YOU CANT DO THAT! the thought is still there. the pain is still here. i need to move on. but cant because of the fear. i play all day as if I'm happy as can be but am slowly dying inside. what do i do with this life? what do i do with these thoughts? where do i go when I'm alone? i have no answers. i need plenty. she always tells me i can talk to her, but what for? so she can criticize and be sad herself? therefore i face this problem myself. alone. for he is gone. sad is what i am. alone is what i have become.