Why?

Why do i even come to school
why do i even care
why do i let you hurt me
why am i not aware

what the hell did i do to you
what did i ever say
what makes you says those thing
what makes me stay

how can i live with this
how can b okay
how come you remind me
how come this happens everyday

why do i let you say those things
what makes me hold back from hitting you
how can i defend myself
knowing there is nothing anyone will do

well why do i want to hurt myself
I'm sure if you look down deep you'll see
how that if its not you hurting
its killing me

what can i do to get you to stop
I've tried to just befriend you,
why do i even try
when screaming back hateful things is all you do

well i am tried of this
all of this pain
these tears falling
brings on the rain

so todays the day i say no
on asking myself why
todays the day ill hurt myself
no longer will i cry

** this is about an exboyfriend that i go to school with.. if it was up to me i would never see him but just my luck i have to sit by him in a class.. almost everyday he makes me cry.. n almost everyday i feel like this.. i just hope someone else feels like this too so maybe i won't feel so alone...

Elizabeth