I am tired of playing...

I am tired of playing of my pain.
I am tired of playing a lie.
I want people to know what I've been through,
That I live to live, and love.

I am tired of playing soldier for everyone,
because on the inside, i am dying.
I have not told anybody about me,
exept for Cheyenne. She understands.

I am tired of plaiyng this game,
because i hide my shame,
behind my smiles, i am dying.
I am living, but only just.

I am tired of playing of what I've done.
I have done things that I am now regreting,
But as long as Cheyenne will stay with me,
I will continue playing soldier.
I am tired of playing this, so I wont any longer.

**In case you haven't noticed, harlea, i will continue this if you want me to. I love you**