Just Some Thoughts (screw the rhyme)

A whole night passed me by as always
Awake
I stand again thinking of you
My heart in my hands burning
Beating like it never did before
On my wrist stand my friends
Running, counting seconds that turn into days
Behind the door
I hear April crying
And on the glass of the window tears are falling
Words
keep roaming in my head
Forming paragraphs I can't understand
Questions
I ask unconsciously
Do I really love you?
A question covered with ambiguity
And if I didn love you,
Then why?
Why by every thought of you I lose control?
Why every night my pillow cries bellow my head?
Why my heart bleeds until it dries?
And sleeping, from my eyes, flies?
Why your name never leaves my tongue?
And your picture, never leaves my eyes?
My heart that lies in my hands whisper to me
It answers
"Yes, believe it, You love her"
"You love her more than you love yourself"
"You love her more than everything else in your life"
Yes, I do!
How can't I and you are my life?
I love you a love for you that never ends
That stands beyond limits, beyond borders

Your name
Is the blood that runs in my veins
Five letters, Formed my alphabet
Been like my guitar's strings
Made a beautiful song I sing
Five letters, Touched my lips
Like a breeze in spring
Your face
Like a moon surrounded by a white rim
Of it even the dreams never dreamed
Like a beautiful painting that amazed even the brush
Like a star that lost its way to the sky
Your eyes
Are the most beautiful sunset
Are seas I want to swim in
A thousand worlds I get lost in
Your smile
Is a sunrise that almost got me blinded
Surrounded by your lips like velvet curtains
Painted by a line of pearls
That's where the snow got its color from

I love you

Even though what you think of me
Or what feelings you have for me
I love you and you are all I am asking for
Though I might be asking for the impossible
And that you might be standing above my dreams
Above being mine, above reaching you
But still, Everyone looks to the sky
I love you and you are all I am asking for
Thought it's just a possibility
And that the stars might be closer to me
But still it's more than reality to me
Promises of being there, I keep
Feeding the only thing that's left for me. Hope.

I love you

And it what makes me hold on
It what makes me wait
Two whole months felt like decades
Since you wanted a Break
Still, I don't care. I'll just wait
'cause loving you is what will never fade
Before you I have never been
And without you I will never be
So I'll just stand her

And wait