Every time I am forced to walk away
There simply aren't enough words to say
To express the depth of a love this real
No combination of sentences could explain how I feel
A safety, a comfort I'd never known
But I am forced once again back to being alone
This is not how it is supposed to be!!
The pain is shredding me apart... can't anyone see?
The only one able to stop my crying is the one I'm crying for
I reach out in the deepest dark of the night, but he's not there anymore
Why is it that things must be this way?
Will I ever make it to that blessed someday?
Helpless... I can't hold back the cold tears of desperation!
But there's no other way to channel the agonizing frustration!
I tune out the world because the pain is too much
Reality is the worst killer! Forget injections, alcohol or such!
How strange that the most addictive drug is the only legal one
See true love addicts itself to you before you even know it has begun!
There is no escape and there is no remedy
The worlds strongest force yet it can't be seen!
Unbearably I let his hand slip out of mine...
Letting go of my perfect world until next time
The heart wrenching departure kiss gently lingers on my lips
I can almost still feel the sensation it left in my finger tips
Never have I rejected a scene so excruciatingly sad
In denial I stared through the soiled window of the taxi cab
The camouflage uniform drifted out of sight
It was pure agony but I fought to stay strong with all my might
Every tiny burning tear sliced through my check like a blade
But I clung tightfisted to each precious memory we had made
Screaming and sobbing inside myself I successfully boarded the plane
But with each reluctant step I took, I struggled to stay sane!
I told my heart we would be okay
That we are strong and we will reach that someday
But what comfort can be found when lying alone at night?
Nightmares replay of leaving him there & driving out of sight!
Please tell me this is just all a dream
And tomorrow things wont be as they seem
No this is reality and I am forced to go on...
Life just keeps coming and he is still gone.
Classes, homework, basketball games and back to my dorm
Why do I feel so lost if this is my typical norm?
Something is just missing and no one understands!
This incompleteness haunts me! I need to feel his hand!!
You know it's true love when you even miss the taste of his breath!
And you can go days on end without any rest
Simply because you know that the day is coming
When he will be next to you again and in your ear humming
Sweet and silly little tunes your favorite songs
And at you know without a doubt where you belong
No matter what happens nothing in the world can come between you
No fights, storms, tragedies or any possible thing a person could do!
Sad part is that the distance never goes away
Even though each morning you wake up to a new day
The phone rings from a different time zone
And for a few short moments you don't feel so alone
That amazing telephone connection is all you have
And yet somehow it makes things not so bad
You'll be waiting by that phone until the bitter end
Until the day when your world is set right again
The day he returns back to your loving arms
Where everything is perfect and nothing causes harm
Smiles are like oxygen and kisses are medicine to the soul
Then life will be complete because he's the half that makes you whole
