Up and Down

I lie awake in bed at night,
I kick and scream and run and fight.
From all the fears that are in my head,
And all the blood that's on my bed.
I cry and cry until there is not more,
So I count the death notes I'd written; four.
I sit in agony all day long,
Remembering how you left me, gone...
I see your face inside my head,
And think about how I am dead,
On the inside, not the out.
From all those kicks and screams and shouts.
My blood drains out of me,
But I never seem to find the key,
Of my heart to open it,
But it's all of this shit,
That's wrecked my life forever,
Like a pulley and a lever,
What go up must come down.
Just like screams that have no sound.