If i could kill myself

As you bring the knife closer,
i cant help but smile.
the girl, nobody will notice her
will be dead in a while.
to end my pain,
to clear my mind,
to feel sane,
if only one last time.
as it digs in my skin
the pain i feel is not from the cut.
as my world fades away into the dim,
its something deep in my gut,
telling me to fight
and hold on to dear life.
but i still want to die tonight,
to throw up my hands and end this strife.

the last words on my lips that night were "please forgive me"

i spoke to thin air
in hope the message travel to all that may care