What I Miss Most

I miss your hugs and kisses,
Walking and holding hands,
I miss going to the beach,
And finding rocks upon the sand.

All of those happy days,
That are now so far behind,
And all of the sunshine,
That burst through our gray skies.

I miss the laughter,
And every joke we shared,
I miss the father daughter moments,
And all the times you showed you cared.

But what I miss most of all,
Daddy, now you're gone,
Is that nobody yells at me,
'Cause you were the only one.

I miss you shouting at me,
When I knew I'd been bad,
I miss pushing your buttons,
And seeing you get mad.

I miss coming home from school,
To be brought down to tears,
That's what I miss most of all,
Out of all the family years.

I miss arguing every morning,
And avoiding each others eyes,
All the times you lectured me,
And every time you criticized.

You always used to put me down,
To make me feel small,
And now that's what I'm lacking,
Before I can stand up tall.

I miss making up after battles,
Apologizing for the things I said,
And I'm still apologizing now,
Daddy, now that you are dead.

Every night I pray for one blessing,
Hoping it will soon come,
I need to be yelled at now,
And Daddy, you're the one.

So when I wake up in the morning,
Make me think that I look bad,
And when I don't feel I'm lucky,
Remind me of what you had.

But when I'm feeling blue,
Make me on top of this world,
Give me that special smile,
I got just from being your little girl.

Still, when I waltz through the house,
Without a care or worry in sight,
Take away my blue skies,
And leave me with the night.

Never let me know when I'm good,
Just point out all my wrongs,
'Cause Daddy, that's what I miss most,
Now that you are gone.