I'd rather feel nothing
then what I feel now.
I'd rather be numb
Then feel lonely somehow.
I wish I could go back,
to when I was fake
To days I would not...
Feel such heart ache.
Then it was you.
You waltzed into my life.
You made me forget,
Of my self inflicted strife.
And then just as quickly
You made it all fall
I'm trying to find out how,
To rebuild that wall.
I cry till I'm breathless,
No longer can I fake that smile.
And living in this world,
Is so juvenile.
Insecurity is brewing,
I'm so far gone though.
And as of right now,
Suicide is all that I know.
