I don't know how I get threw life
Everyday I get stabbed with a knife
I tell secrets, I tell lies
My life is just one big surprise
Sometimes I cant get by everyday
My parents wont stop yelling
I wish they would just go away
I wish everyone would just disappear
Its hard without Colt not being here
My life is just one big piece of crap
I feel like im stuck in a never ending trap
My sister is gone shes so far away
Its sad that I cant see her everyday
My childhood sucked my mom was never there
She had stupid boyfriends that didn't even care
I fake a smile on my face all the time
Because showing emotion here is a crime
I have ADHD I take a pill
My mom thinks our family is perfect she needs Dr. Phil
The one person I hate is my real dad
Thinking about him makes me mad
The only time I don't fake a smile
Is when I see my friends but only for awhile
It doesn't matter my mom takes them away
She does that crap every day
My friend Colt died on Halloween day
Why does my life have to be this way
I don't have many memories of my baby self
Cause when I was young my mom had no mental health
My grandpa died when I was 3
He was the only one who cared, the one who took care of me
Its hard for me to get close to anyone
All I know is God is #1
He saved my soul from dieing
But how come im still crying
I know my life will never be perfect
But in the end it will be worth it
Cause ill be lifted up and ill leave my past behind
And then God will clear my mind
There wont be one bad thing left to find
Like I said my life will never be the way I want it to be
But thats just life and I know no matter what....
God will never leave me
