I lost you

It's great to know
Im gunna have you
i want a baby
who will love me to

The joy i'll have
to see your face
to see something special
i'll have you every day

my joy got broken
i guess you werent there
i dont want people to see
me crying all these tears

so to take the pain away
i'll get myself high
to forget what i wanted
i'll just say goodbye

but you really were there
i never knew
i took all these drugs
what did i do

i wish i could hear
what you were trying to say
i can't believe what i did
i killed you slowly everyday

your exact words were
"mommy cant you see
all of these drugs your taking
mommy there killing me"

im sorry i did this
i didnt know
if i wasnt so stupid
you'd be here to live and grow

i was only stupid
to make the pain leave
i lost one before
but this loss i can't believe

i can only say im sorry
for the stupid things i do
and just blame myself
because i lost you