Broken Apart

Always so tired
Always in fear
Afraid of everything
Anything that's near

Afraid of love
Of ending up alone
Fearing the unknown
The loss of a loved one

I hide the bruises well
The signs of my misfortune
The proof of my actions
The evidence of my betrayals

No ending in sight
I fall asleep awaiting the demons
The nightmares and dreams
Of what the future holds

I awake from my sleep
Tears streaming down my face
As I recall the demons
Of last night fancy

The darkness over whelms me
As I make my way into the light
The end of the tunnel
Is never in sight

Day after day I watch
As the world turns
My emotions rage
Deeply within my soul

As I gaze into the mirror
The bruises more apparent
My shadow looms silently
Within the empty doorway

The black around my eye
The bruise across my cheek
The break in my rib
The pain in my feet

My tears fall forever
The daylight fades away
The darkness returns
And the nightmares begin again

The screaming and yelling
Hurtful words rage
Her dying heart
Locked within a cage

This willful spirit
Is beginning to fade
The darkness is
Outlasting the light of day

August 26, 2001