Hide it all away

Hand in hand
a smile forced across my face
thoughts revolve in my mind
jealous thoughts
scared thoughts
worried thoughts
confused thoughts

He whispers something in my ear
i don't hear him
he knows
he knows theirs something wrong
but can't bring himself to ask

we walk hand in hand
silent, no words spoken, nothing to say

we have agreed to have no secrets
but i can't bring myself to tell him everything
everything of the past
everything i dream for the future
mistakes I've made
good things I've done.

I'm afraid to let him in
let him know the real me
I'm afraid for him to see me at my worst
in my tears

instead i smile
say i love you
and save everything for another day