Its to late!

One,two,three,four,
i cant take this shit no more!
in the bathroom on the floor
crying against the bathroom door.

no ones in no ones home,
this is me all alone!
shut the blinds turn off my phone.
feel my heart turn to stone.

i open my bag take out the knife.
welcome home depressions wife!
taunting me now with death or life
continue hurting or end my strife?

take the knife push it in,
iv now let the darkness win.
pictures of pain on my skin,
iv committed the deadliest sin.

shit! i panic now iv gone to deep!
it wont stop its starting to seep!
the darkness its beginning to creep...
my end i finally meet.

....

i look down see them sob
was this worth it i think not!
maybe gone but never forgot
i should have been happy with my lot!

i never thought that i mattered.
my family look utterly shattered.
my families lives utterly tattered,
just because i thought i never mattered ...