I wish I would have never fallen in love with him

I never thought this day would come true,
the guy I've been in love with since I was just a kid is in love with my best friend,
and she feels the same way about him.
Knowing what I know hurts soooooooo much,
more then anything in this world.
No one could ever understand,
My life is becoming my worst nightmare.
I can't even look at them together.
I could die from a broken heart, No lie.
Why doesn't he love the one who loves him???
Nobody knows the way I feel or ever really felt about him.
Over the years he's become my hearts desire,
But he'll never be mine will he?
I hold all my emotions in cause no one's here listing,
one the outside I look fine,
on the inside alls you can see is the piece's of my broken heart floating around.
If only their was one thing I could change about myself,
to make him love me...
All I've ever been is myself,
nothing more and nothing less,
Yet he doesn't even notice me looking straight into his eye's.
He was my first love and he'll be my last,
because I could never love again,
I gave it all to him,
just with out him knowing..
Every night it's him I wished loved me.
And so I think maybe were not meant to be,
so I give it all to God over and over and over again,
but the thought of his flawless face never leaves my head,
and my heart never changes.
I just wish I would have never seen him,
Never meant him,
Never looked into his gorgeous eye's,
Never had a single dream about him,
Never planed out my life with him, when he was never by my side.
I just wish I would have never fallen I love with him.....