Selfless Selfish

I thought I was doing everything right
But then you started making me doubt

I continue wanting to ask for a notion of how I should act
Then I ask myself why I need your conceptions as facts

It frustrates me that you can't see how much things are at fault
And how I'm the only one trying to fix these flaws

You're ignoring our troubles and taking all the deceptive paths
I keep trying to fix it; but you deny it and leave me in wrath

I keep making assumptions about how you'll come to your senses
But you make me feel that the words I'm saying are senseless

You're becoming every one I've ever pushed out of my way
All the things I've left behind and walked away

I haven't walked away from you, or given up because I still care
But I can't help it if each time I try, you leave me in despair

You've made it explicit that you're not who you used to be
And still, you find it inconvenient to admit it truthfully

So here we are, trapped in a complex relationship
Where neither you, nor I can let our feelings slip

It's strange how we're not lying but we're not honest
It's stranger how you can live your life but I can't get a bit of rest

It still shocks me how you keep acting ignorant all the time
Makes me wonder how much I can handle or if I can write another line