If I could see

If I could see...
Into your heart.
What would I see?

Would I find the truth?
If I could delve into your mind?

Would I get my answer?
Would I get satisfied?

But I couldn't do it.
The truth is not what I want.

I want to keep...
Keep the delusions.
That I have held.

Held for so long.
All too just keep me safe.

I can't see into your heart.
I don't want the knowledge.
Knowledge that can confirm...
Confirm my fears.

I can't take it.
I don't want it.

It would be too much...
Too much too bear.

Too much too handle.
I don't want the pain.
Nor the sorrow.

I don't want to see the pain...
The pain that I've hid