What today means

I don't know why you did it!
I don't know why you choose this day
Maybe you didnt know what tomorrow it for me?
I hate how much I am hurting
But no-one will understand
Tomorrow Dad, It is my birthday..
Did you not know 2 years ago..
When you did what you did!
my 3rd year celebrating..
But you made me have to climb this massive hill before I could..
The 31st will always be that way!
Maybe you didn't know..
But why did you plan it.
Why did you sit there and get mum to book it..
Order the cake..
Did you think I would still be able to smile the next day!
All I can do now Is cry at night..
When no one else is listening..
When no one else cares
I pray dad!
I pray to see you agian
I pray that you will care enough to come back.
I pray you will hold me and never let me go like you promised!
Dad,
Time won't stop for no-one
Not even long enough so I can tie up my shoe.
All I keep doing is falling to this rough ground..
With no one to catch me..
& no-one to pick me up
Not like you did anyways
I miss you So much dad!
I hate how much I can't hate you
I know you loved me
But you hurt me
I know you cared about me
But you left me
And you left me at the worst time anyone could be left..
The day before I turned 15
I don't no why you did what you did
But I will always love you
Even if up there..
You don't love me back!
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