Change

Right here we go where do i start?
theres a jumble in my head a pain in my heart,
so messed up where do i go from here?
put down the knife? shake off the fear?
.......
right ok

grabbing life with both hands it was going well
but just like always i tripped and fell
tried at the new start i couldn't do it,
life started to crumble bit by bit.

i asked God to help me prayed every day
God didn't help me faith wasn't my way.
felt i had no purpose no point in going on
couldn't turn to my friends because i had none

my heart it was breaking i couldn't take the pain
couldn't bear the thought of this same shit again
with tears streaming down my face i lay down my head
all i could think was man i might as well be dead

but then a thought occurred to me how had it come to this?
all i had to keep me going was the memory of that kiss.
then right there that second i made the decision of my life
i was going to stop turning to that damn knife

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life its been difficult had my fair share of grief
but this is my turn to turn over a new leaf
my life its not over its only just began
new job new home children maybe a new man?

got it all right there ahead of me so i just gotta wait
all i had to do was put my life straight
i know things can get tough thats just part of life
but now i don't need to turn to that kitchen knife