Same Mistake

**THis is more to vent than anything. I don't think it's one of my best pieces...but I had to get it out somehow.

Sometimes I don't mind the rain
It fills up this half empty glass sitting on my front steps
Now it's not to say that everything will fix itself
Because I know it won't
But let's just say your thoughts are not where I want to be tonight
I get tired of being locked in then thrown out
Without warning
Or maybe it's me disregarding them
After you've closed my eyes for the night
I have a hard time concentrating on your words
When your eyes tell me I'm in the wrong place tonight
And yeah maybe I have been a little out of my mind
But can you really blame me?
This anger is building up faster than your lust for her
And I've pushed myself to the ground enough for you
It's time I find my own ground to lay on
Because where you are the stars tell a different story
And the dots never connect to a full moon anyways
So maybe I am in the wrong place
And maybe all I learned from this was to never
Turn back to the same old room
The dust collects in the corner and the books hide under dirty laundry
It isn't the same and I know enough to know that
I think I learned that once you walk out
That's it, that's all
It hurts too much to think in a few months you won't be there
To stop me from running away or break my fall
But I've always been good at doing it on my own
And it hurts even more to know
That you're already giving up on me
Or maybe that you never cared enough to care in the first place
Now don't you come around and try to fix this
You help just hurts and I won't put up with it
Before when you turned your back on me I said
Maybe, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow
With a different view of what's going on inside my head
But you always let me down with every chance
And I can't give you another shot
They say you miss 100% of the shots you don't take
But you're different
Because you took them all with a laugh and decided to miss them all
Regardless of where you'd end up at the end
I think now it's my chance
And you can bet this was the last shot