Not again...

Please don't let me down,
I won't get up again,
I've been hurt too many times
to have any more strength left.
I just wanna smile again,
wanna stop the tears,
wanna let you help me
to do all those happy small things.
But,can't you see I'm scared?
I'm shaking out of fear.
My heart is almost glued,
but still it's too fragile,
it can easily break again,
and I'm not sure that's something I could take.
I wouldn't survive that.
Not again.
I couldn't handle all the pain.
I'll simply let myself go.
So I want you to know;
Please don't let me down,
not again...