Nothing Makes Sense

In your life have you ever felt like absolutely nothing makes sense
That your life, decisions, what you say, what you think, and things that you do
Just make no sense at all
Well that's the way that I feel right now
A week ago I broke up with a guy who was funny smart, kind, strong, sensitive, and loving
Who loved everything about me even my faults
He would give me what ever I would ask for and some things I didn't
He was truly amazing
The thing was that I could not love him like he loved me
I tried for months over a year but I just couldn't make my self love him like he loved me
Don't get me wrong I loved him but the love I had for him was a very close everlasting friendship love
Because no matter how bad he messed up he could always come to me and I would listen with an open mind
I would not judge him
He did have his faults like any human
But his faults were enough that it made it impossible to love him like I wanted to
Because I always wanted to love him like he loved me but I could not
So now I have lost a great friend and love
I do not know if he will ever forgive me for breaking his heart
Hopefully one day he will
Maybe someday he will overcome some of his faults
And maybe then I will be able to love him as much as he once loved me