Rememberance of Her

Cry for me sweet tears of bitter love
As I break the neck of the dove
Because there's nothing better than your pain
When you're the one driving me insane
I long for vengeance and yet I don't strike
Even with these visions of your head on a pike
Should I rip your lungs out and eat your flesh
But you're not even worth all that mess
Cry out for me how much you cared
Though both of us know you only glared
For you hated me as much as I hated life
In fact you were the one who handed me a knife
You got tired of my lack of happiness
And seeing me only brought you sadness
Is that why you smiled in my arms as you died
Could that be why in your last breath you finally sighed
That you loved me and that you would forever
The day that you left me in the cold snow of December
Why did you fight me and why pull the trigger
How could you leave me in a world so bitter
I hate you for making me take that gun from you
For laying in the snow and making me watch your face turn blue
Don't you see in your death what you've done to me
How you've caused me so much instability
I loved you but we were meant to be
Because I was your guard and you were Ms.Popularity
Protecting you when he threatened to kill you
Holding you as you cried because you loved me too
Even as boyish as I was though no one would accept it
And to save your reputation you couldn't be a lesbian
So you pretended to hate me and told your friends
Who all hurt and made fun of me for my loyalty never bends
You let them hurt me but I didn't care
As long as you were happy and I was there
To help you when you fell and hold you high
But that snow falling night you just said good bye
And even though you didn't commit suicide
You made me do the worst thing possible in my mind
I hurt you in a way I can't ever reverse
Hardly able to believe it till I saw the hearse
I loved you so truly even if it wasn't meant to be
So on your grave I leave a rose for all to see
Its the last one I'll ever leave for you though
Because now I am seventeen years old
Its been years since I've killed you in snow
And for you I promise this time I'll really let go