Regrets..

Remember when you cared?
I'm not going to say that
everything was all just a lie
because no matter what, I will
never believe that.

At the time I think you cared,
you wanted what was best for
me. I was in love and you said
you were too. I don't know
what happened.

You always told me that you
would never mean to hurt me,
but when you left me behind,
you knew perfectly well what
you were doing.

I guess it's something you had
to do. The days got longer, and
every night without you got
harder.

Sunsets at the lake by myself;
the place we always used to go.
The bench we always sat on,
lying on your shoulder. All
of that was gone.

Sitting where we spent our whole
summer. For hours just crying
because I knew just then that
I wasn't different at all.

I was going to be someone forgotten
and that's the part I hated the most.
After that, we never talked unless
we were fighting.

It was as if we didn't even know
each other, but that's just it, I
knew you too well. The great guy
you could be, the mean jerk that
sometimes you could act like, and
even the immature little kid you
sometimes were.

The guy I fell in love with wasn't
mine anymore, not even as a
friend. Finding out you were moving,
I didn't even know what to think.

We spent the last three months as
far drifted apart as we had ever
been. When you left, I wrote you
this dumb note. Poured my heart
and soul out to you.

What I got in return was absolutely
nothing. I wasn't expecting you to
love me too, or even to want to
start talking to me, but just for you
to realize what I felt.

I want to believe that maybe you
just don't like telling people
how you really feel..but is that
the truth? You used to be able
to open up to me, and really,
you never had to stop.

It obviously didn't matter that much.
You tell me now that I ruined your
dating life and your expectations are
too high. You made me feel even
worse. I had no idea I had the
physical ability to cry over you
anymore than I already had.

To this day, I'm not really sure who's
fault it is. I feel like it's mine, and you
tell me that it is. I guess what happened
was that I screwed up. Again, I made a
mistake...the worst one of my life. </3