I Didnt Know How To Tell You

I Knoe Thiis Is A Long Poem;; Buh It Means ALOT Too Me Soo Please Take The Time To Read It; Thank You

I Didn't Know How To Tell You
So I Thought This Would Be A Good Start;
I Need Too Try &&Find A Way
To Explain How My World Was Torn Apart;
When I Was Three; I Was Left Alone;
A Place; In A World Which To Me Was Unknown.
My Mom Then Came Back &&So Did My Dad;
He Threw Me Against The Stairs; &&Hit Me For The Things I Lacked;
I Didn't Know What Was Happening;
It Was All So Fast;
But I Knew The Pain I Felt Would Always Last;
Like A Scar On My Heart; It Will Never Heal;
I Just Hope No One Has To Know The Pain I Feel.
When I Was Four; I Was Taken Away;
To A Horrible Lonely Place I Had Too Stay;
A Place I Knew I'd Never Belong;
But At 5 Years Old I'd Learnt To Be Strong;
I Learnt To Fight For Myself; Cause No One Else Would;
I Learnt Not Too Feel; Even Though I Knew I Should.
At 7 Years Old; I Left That Behind.
I Went To A Place Where Everyone Was Kind;
These People Became My Family;
&&We Built A Speciial Bond;
I Had Brothers &&Sisters Of Who I Grew Fond.
They Helped Me Through &&Taught Me A Lot.
My Horrible Past I'd Nearly Forgot.
But Then When I Turned 13 My Mom Got In Touch
Said She Wanted Me Back; But It Was All Too Much
I Didn't Know What To Do &&I Wanted To Leave.
I Had Lost All Faith &&Found It Hard To Believe;
But Then I Looked Back; &&Saw How My Life Had Changed
I'd Grown Up A Lot; && I Had Forgotten The Paiin.
I Thought Everythiing Would Work Out Okaii;
&&Everythiing Horrible Would Fade Away
But I Soon Began To Realise; That Nothing Was Mine;
I Lost A Lot Of People; In A Short Space Of Tiime;
I Started Gettiin Weaker; &&I Was Back In That Place;
A World Full Of Misery; My Life A Disgrace.
I Found It Too Hard Too Cope; So I Tried To Take The Easy Way Out;
But I Realised That I Had Done To Wrong Thiing &&I Tried Too Shout;
I Realised Then From That Moment On; That Everything Happens For A Reason;
&&That People Once Close To You; Will One Day Be Gone;
I Began To Block People Out; &&Not Let Them In;
No One Saw The Real Me; I Was No Longer A Person; I Became A Thing;
I Showed No Emotion; &&I Was Lost Inside;
I Had No Where To Run; &&No Where To Hide;
I Soon Became Depressed; &&Began To Stop Eating;
I Was With A Guy; Who Jus Gave Me A Beating;
He Tied Me Up; With Rope On My Wrists;
He Kicked Me &&Punched Me; Hit Me With His Fists;
Soon After That I Just Gave Up; I Began To Realise I Had No Luck;
I Didn't Think I'd Ever Find Someone; To Love Me Like I Loved Them;
&&I Got Ready To Just Give Up Again.
But Then I Realiised That The Person I Truly Loved Was There All Along,
He Brought Hope &&Happiiness, Into My Cold Hearted World,
&&Now Im No Longer That Sad Depressed Little Giirl,
He Lifted Me Up When ii Was Down,
He Stood There Strong, When No One Else Was Around,
So Just Incase You Havnt Realised By Now,
I Don't Know When &&I Dunt Know How
But Ive Fallen For You, My Best Friiend.
&&I'll Always Love You; Until The End.

ii Wrote Thiis For My Boyfriiend Because ii Needed Hiim To Knoe Wah Had Gone On In My Liife To Make Me The Way ii Am;; &&ii Wanted Hiim To Knoe Tha Real Me;; Comments &&Feedback Would Be Much Appreciiated :)
Thanks For Readiing ii Knoe It Was Very Long,x