Sorry but I have to correct myself

Sorry but I have to correct myself

I can't stop thinking about you. I can't sleep knowing I'm not with you. I don't eat because I can't hold it down. I cry myself to sleep knowing I'm not there for you. I don't want to love anyone else the rest of my life. I want to love you. If you move on I accept that all I want is to see you happy. I can deal with being alone and have accepted that. I just want you to know that you were my first and last love. I never told anyone else I loved them. It's a strong word to just throw at someone when you don't mean it. I meant it when I told you. I will never forget you and I wish I could give you so much more than just words. I wish we could lie underneath the stars. Take you to dinner, hold you, hug you, and see you. I wish I could hold your hands and start my life with you. I want to grow old with you. I want to love you to the end of time. I know were young and were not really that smart but I know that I love you. You are actually the smart one. You're right we should just be friends for now and see what happens in time. Ill see you again some time. For now I'm just going to do what I do best and run from my troubles. I'm sorry for not even saying bye and just dropping off the face of the planet. It will have been months or maybe years before you see me again. I just want to be that perfect guy when I come back to you that is if you're even willing to come with me. I was dumb I should have never told you that I loved you. I'm in no position to accept you're heart. I'm just me. I have nothing to offer you. I can't even see you let alone try to love you. I'm hundreds of miles away. I can't give you anything being separated that far. I wish I could help you but I can't even help myself. I only wish I could just go be with you but I have to be gone. I have to be gone. It's not my choice I have to correct the wrong that I have done. Maybe what I will have to go thru will make me a better man. I'm sorry but I just can't give love from the inside of a prison cell.

-FTG-i know its not really a poem but i started writting it and i felt that by writting it this way i could capture more drama and you learn why it was written in the end.