Better without me

I thought i told you
i thought i made it clear
but here i am again
the scene reappears

you're chasing after them
they are following after you
you guys are smiles
hey whats new?

it case you haven't noticed
I'm having a hard day
but your not pushing in
when I'm pushing you away

I'm hated by everyone
and everyone agitates me
so i stand away from the crowd
and i watch you and the ladies

you come up to me once
to ask me if I'm mad
i say no and turn away
and thats the end of that

then you come up once more
and ask if I'm alright
i want to tell you so bad
so you can make it right

here comes another inner battle
but i go with my head and say no
you don't even try to understand
so off away you go

my ride arrives and i wave goodbye
but no one pays attention
so i leave the same way
full of hate and tension

the car passes by the group once more
and the person i hate is me
i see you all laughing and smiling
life would be better without me

Lexi Lou