Trying to find....

Im trying to find this life
Im trying to find me
I once had everything
I now have nothing
I smile and say im ok
But inside im crying and getting ready to die
I want to talk
When i try no words come out
I run, jump and have funn
To try to hid all my pain
The scare's makes me realize the past is real
Even that i dont want to
I try to be invisable
That seems to be the only way out
I look at people
I dont know them
How do they know me?
Living in a world lost and confussed
You think they care about you
Then they always leave you
When I look into the marrior
I start to cry
THIS ISNT ME
Im not the person staring back
I feel traped
Will someone let me out!!
I have alot of questions
I try so hard at being better
But i still have alot of doubt
Because in a world i live in
No body can figure me out.....