Failure

What's with the word failure

People hatred this

People are anxious to this

People are oblivious to this

But for me, I love this

I love how it hurts me

I love how it struck me

I love how it bends me on my knees

I want to fall, fall so deeply

Were people can't ever see me

Were darkness will blind me

In able not to see the world again

I want to cry but I can't

Tears run dry on my eyes

I want to scream out loud

But my voice stuck on my mouth

Im tired of being alone

Im tired of people who judge me for who Im not

People who doesn't know what Im going through

People who envy me

Why can't I be right?

Why can't I be myself?

Why can't I be happy?

Why can't I be love?

My body is depleted

My mind is whirling with agony

My heart is numb from pain

My soul is devastated

Am I a real failure?

Yah I guess I am

I failed those people who loved me

I failed those people who believed in me

All I want is to be loved

All I want is a peaceful life

All I want is a simple living

All I want is to be me...