Are you scared of suicide?

The pictures are clear.
But my emotion is gone.
I hear a groan,
And than a yawn.

I can't feel anything.
Physical or mental.
I can cry and scream.
Or even feel if somethings gentle.

I don't know when I'm tired.
Or even when I'm awake.
It's like I turned numb.
Or if anything is fake.

I don't know what you did to me.
Or if you think this is a joke.
But I don't know what to do.
Except hope for a stroke

I can kill myself right now.
And wouldn't feel a thing.
Don't mess with a person that's hurt.
And never pull their strings.

I don't want to live anymore.
But I was to scared to commit suicide.
I thought it would be to painful.
But now I can die painless and with pride.