This Feeling?

I have this funny feeling
it makes me feel all weird
something i have dreaded
something i have feared.

is this a dream maybe
or is this actually real
is it this the truth somehow
that i can really feel

i don't seem to be able
to let myself truly go
is this all pretend
is this all for show

i cant help but to hold back
I'm scared, thats just me
I'm not sure that happiness
for me is meant to be